When faced with my infertility, I often feel as though the people observing from the outside view my desire for a child as selfish, wrong, and in some severe cases, I feel judged as evil and undeserving. I think many Christians, intentionally or not, function under the premise that if God does not bless you with children, that maybe you are ill suited, or that it is in that child's or your's best interest. It is very frustrating, then, to attempt to explain this desire and longing for a child, while the woman around you seem to only validate a desire for children by the ability to have them. I have been reading a lot lately, by Christians, non-Christians, and God himself, trying to grapple with my current state. Many of my feelings have been validated, but overwhelming, I find myself frustrated, fearful, faithless, and lonely in my desire to have a child that seem to be impossibly unfulfilled. Am I selfish for desiring a child I just cannot seem to have?